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Desiderata, by Max Ehrmann, 1927

By Anita Mathias

      Desiderata
         Latin for Desired Things
Max Ehrmann, 1927

 
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
Desiderata was inspired by an urge that Ehrmann wrote about in his diary: “I should like, if I could, to leave a humble gift — a bit of chaste prose that had caught up some noble moods.”
I think he succeeded. Don’t you? I first encountered the Desiderata when I was in school, and have loved it ever since. It grows with you.
“Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery.” As someone running a small business, and in touch with other business people, how true this is! Even other Christians, and people whose nobility of soul, and love for God, and devotion to God you do not doubt, and rightly so, can lie, and indulge in small forms of dishonesty when it comes to money. It’s very sad!
However, “But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism.”

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In which there can be peace and sadness while you do God’s will

By Anita Mathias

Several years ago, I read in Anne Lamott’s “Travelling Mercies” a to-me-then unusual way of discerning God’s will.

She was considering aborting her son Sam. And went to a priest for counsel.

(Though it is a tricky situation to see counsel. Hey, what’s the poor priest to tell you? Abort the baby? Be creative on your taxes? Quit a lucrative job and become a writer? There are some alternatives which no responsible professional can advise you to take one of the alternatives. In those situations, it is best if the individual makes the decision between herself, her conscience and God.)

Anyway, I have used that idea (new to me then, as I said) as one of the factors in making decisions. How does Plan A make me feel? How does Plan B make me feel?

This way of proceeding has its limitations. Sometimes neither Plan A nor Plan B make you feel happy, good and relieved.

There is this strange dream I have had 2 or 3 times of late. I walk to the back  the garden of a property into which I have moved a few months ago and find a block of rooms in which squatters are living all crowded in. In an open area, they are bathing under taps. Dark people in loin clothes. Several families in a room. A suite of rooms is being used as a conference centre, with offices–on my property!! People don’t realize it’s mine.

I announce that this is my property. Some know it and are whiney, cringey and servile. Some deny it. I find neat vineyards they planted, neat veg. beds. A factory built on my property.

I look through the rooms and realize we could set up our ping-pong table in one, rent others for £200 a month, have an office, a kitchen in another.

Endless potential.

Evict them? They are begging to stay, or fighting to stay.

No good choice.

One thing for sure, I would be happier and more peaceful if I evicted them, rather than have the continual annoyance of squatters on my property. There are other places, other gardens in the world to squat. The correct thing to do was to reclaim my property–the only thing which would give peace in the long run.

Roy and I were trying to decode the meaning of this dream I have had at least three times. We do have a large garage and barn and greenhouse with things we need to get rid off, and in which we could place our pingpong table, have an extra office etc. Roy said the stuff we haven’t had time to get rid off was the squatters.

But I also had another situation which was similar.   We had someone working for us whom we had got on board when we were busy. Soon after that, we had a circumstantial change, and were no longer so busy. And it turned out that the person was not right for the job, didn’t have the right skills, so was slow and expensive.  Didn’t wat to learn the new skills. But needed the money. So we kept them on for months and months because they really did need the job. It was a kind of no-win situation. You feel sad and bad if you take away someone’s part-time job which they were relying on. You feel annoyed and irritated if you are paying someone who is not particularly good fast at their work because they lack the skills for it, and so they land up being an expensive drain on the business.

One thing is sure. You will feel better letting them go, and facing the sadness of doing that once and for all, than the ongoing irritation of having an unnecessary business expense, and not running your business with sleekness and efficiency. So, sadly, we let go of this sweet person. We were sad, but I think we saved a lot of irritation in the long run.

So sadness and peace at the same time is possible

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Sanctification by the Word of God

By Anita Mathias

Sanctify them by the Truth; Your word is truth John 17:17

Sanctification, deep positive personality change, has always been something I have longed for. To truly change the deep structure of who I am, shedding stuff I find troublesome, adding traits I would love to have.

The theological word for this is “sanctification.”

And here, in my reading of the Gospels, I stumbled again across one key to sanctification. Soaking yourself in the word of God, which is truth.

This is perhaps one of the easiest ways of sanctification? A soaking yourself in truth, in Scripture. Balm to the spirit.

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Irene is a teenager at 11!

By Anita Mathias

Irene, 11, is growing up. We had a perfectly lovely evening with friends. I was about to say that I had so enjoyed my conversations when Irene, who was already in the car, her Ipod (which has the Anne of Green Gables series) in her ears, announced with extreme disgust, “Well, THAT was a WASTE of an evening.” I laughed, wanted to scold her, then remembered making v. similar observations at her age, and laughed again.
Hopefully, she’ll get her teenagerishness out of her system early, and be a wonderful 13 year old. I do believe it!!

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Revision

By Anita Mathias

Revision is a bit like piano-tuning, trying to develop perfect pitch. Shake your page so that all unnecessary words fall off, so that what remains is tighter, preciser.
Revision is easier when you view the piece of work at a distance, far from the memories of the ecstasy, ardour, sweat and love which attended its conception and creation. 

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Revision

By Anita Mathias

Revision is a bit like piano-tuning, trying to develop perfect pitch. Shake your page so that all unnecessary words fall off, so that what remains is tighter, preciser.
Revision is easier when you view the piece of work at a distance, far from the memories of the ecstasy, ardour, sweat and love which attended its conception and creation. 

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The Gift of an English Country Idyll

By Anita Mathias

I have thoroughly enjoyed the 5 years we have lived in the English countryside, in Garsington. One of my favourite novels (if it can be called a novel) Naipaul’s “The Enigma of Arrival” deals with a similar idyll.

“Naipaul’s 19th book yields its pleasures slowly. Its plot is essentially the passage of ten years, during which the writer lives in a cottage on the grounds of a Victorian-Edwardian manor in a Wiltshire valley within easy walking distance of Stonehenge and Salisbury Plain.
What engages, indeed mesmerizes, his attention is his sojourn in rural England, “this gift of the second life in Wiltshire, the second, happier childhood as it were, the second arrival (but with an adult’s perception) at a knowledge of natural things, together with the fulfillment of the child’s dream of the safe house in the wood.”
http://www.time.com/time/magazine/article/0,9171,963663,00.html

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Jesus, I just want to hang out with you.

By Anita Mathias

 Jesus, I just want to hang out with you.
I don’t want to say anything
I don’t want to ask anything
I just want you.

Want to hear what you say,
Curl up like a cat against you
And just relax with you,
In your presence.

Jesus.

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Looking at photos from our week in beautiful Sevil Looking at photos from our week in beautiful Seville and Cordoba over New Year with Irene, who had a week off.
And, ICYMI, here’s my latest meditation on the Gospel of Matthew… I’ve recorded it, should you want a few minutes of peace.
https://anitamathias.com/2026/04/29/gods-complete-forgiveness/
Hello Friends, I'm resumed recording my meditation Hello Friends, I'm resumed recording my meditations on the Gospel of Matthew. Do click on this link to listen. 
https://anitamathias.com/.../29/gods-complete-forgiveness/
Christ is the most influential figure in the history of the world, though his life ended in shame, humiliation and failure. But he so completely turned things round in his great reversal that the cross on which he died when all seemed hopeless is now the most common, and revered, symbol in history.
He emerged from and was anchored in Judaism. And as the sins of the people were laid on the scapegoat who was sent into the wilderness to perish, Christ died as the lamb of God voluntarily bearing the guilt of the wrongdoing of the whole world. He paid the price for our forgiveness with his life-blood--in accordance with the iron law of the physical and moral universe, of sowing and reaping, cause and effect. 
And so, God, who appeared as flames of fire to Moses, can now dwell within us, purifying us, whose hearts have darkness and shards of ice. 
And now that Christ was crucified, died, but rose again, His Spirit, no longer contained within his earthly body, is poured out like living water onto all humans, at our humble request. The Spirit pours the love of God into us; he reminds us of the words of Jesus and slowly writes Christ’s sweet law on our hearts. This transfusion of grace helps us do hard things we previously couldn’t do. Our dance with the Spirit gradually breaks the power of sin over us. It transforms us.
Now we, the forgiven, protected by the blood of Jesus poured out over us, and filled with His Spirit, who sings within us, Abba, Father, are adopted by God as his children in his joyful new covenant. We are cells grafted into the vine of our new family--Father, Son, Spirit—who now live in us as we live in them. As we choose by our thoughts and actions to continue living in the vine of Jesus, their energy pulsing through us makes us fruitful. And now, all our prayers which flow in the river of God’s good purposes are kindly heard. Waves of love and power flood from the cross! 
Thank you!
Well, hello friends! Breaking radio silence to let Well, hello friends! Breaking radio silence to let you know that I have taped a meditation for you on Christ’s famous Parable of the Talents in Matthew 25. https://anitamathias.com/2025/11/05/using-gods-gift-of-our-talents-a-path-to-joy-and-abundance/
Here you are, click the play button in the blog post for a brief meditation, and some moments of peace, and, perhaps, inspiration in your day 🙂
Hi Friends, I have taped a meditation; do listen a Hi Friends, I have taped a meditation; do listen at this link: https://anitamathias.com/2025/04/08/the-kingdom-of-god-is-here-already-yet-not-yet-here-2/
It’s on the Kingdom of God, of which Christ so often spoke, which is here already—a mysterious, shimmering internal palace in which, in lightning flashes, we experience peace and joy, and yet, of course, not yet fully here. We sense the rainbowed presence of Christ in the song which pulses through creation. Christ strolls into our rooms with his wisdom and guidance, and things change. Our prayers are answered; we are healed; our hearts are strangely warmed. Sometimes.
And yet, we also experience evil within & all around us. Our own sin which can shatter our peace and the trajectory of our lives. And the sins of the world—its greed, dishonesty and environmental destruction.
But in this broken world, we still experience the glory of creation; “coincidences” which accelerate once we start praying, and shalom which envelops us like sudden sunshine. The portals into this Kingdom include repentance, gratitude, meditative breathing, and absolute surrender.
The Kingdom of God is here already. We can experience its beauty, peace and joy today through the presence of the Holy Spirit. But yet, since, in the Apostle Paul’s words, we do not struggle only “against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the unseen powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil,” its fullness still lingers…
Our daughter Zoe was ordained into the Church of E Our daughter Zoe was ordained into the Church of England in June. I have been on a social media break… but … better late than never. Enjoy!
First picture has my sister, Shalini, who kindly flew in from the US. Our lovely cousins Anthony and Sarah flank Zoe in the next picture.
The Bishop of London, Sarah Mullaly, ordained Zoe. You can see her praying that Zoe will be filled with the Holy Spirit!!
And here’s a meditation I’ve recorded, which you might enjoy. The link is also in my profile
https://anitamathias.com/2024/11/07/all-those-who-exalt-themselves-will-be-humbled-the-humble-will-be-exalted/
I have taped a meditation on Jesus statement in Ma I have taped a meditation on Jesus statement in Matthew 23, “For those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.”
Do listen here. https://anitamathias.com/2024/11/07/all-those-who-exalt-themselves-will-be-humbled-the-humble-will-be-exalted/
Link also in bio.
And so, Jesus states a law of life. Those who broadcast their amazingness will be humbled, since God dislikes—scorns that, as much as people do.  For to trumpet our success, wealth, brilliance, giftedness or popularity is to get distracted from our life’s purpose into worthless activity. Those who love power, who are sure they know best, and who must be the best, will eventually be humbled by God and life. For their focus has shifted from loving God, doing good work, and being a blessing to their family, friends, and the world towards impressing others, being enviable, perhaps famous. These things are houses built on sand, which will crumble when hammered by the waves of old age, infirmity or adversity. 
God resists the proud, Scripture tells us—those who crave the admiration and power which is His alone. So how do we resist pride? We slow down, so that we realise (and repent) when sheer pride sparks our allergies to people, our enmities, our determination to have our own way, or our grandiose ego-driven goals, and ambitions. Once we stop chasing limelight, a great quietness steals over our lives. We no longer need the drug of continual achievement, or to share images of glittering travel, parties, prizes or friends. We just enjoy them quietly. My life is for itself & not for a spectacle, Emerson wrote. And, as Jesus advises, we quit sharp-elbowing ourselves to sit with the shiniest people, but are content to hang out with ordinary people; and then, as Jesus said, we will inevitably, eventually, be summoned higher to the sparkling conversation we craved. 
One day, every knee will bow before the gentle lamb who was slain, now seated on the throne. We will all be silent before him. Let us live gently then, our eyes on Christ, continually asking for his power, his Spirit, and his direction, moving, dancing, in the direction that we sense him move.
Link to new podcast in Bio https://anitamathias.co Link to new podcast in Bio https://anitamathias.com/2024/02/20/how-jesus-dealt-with-hostility-and-enemies/
3 days before his death, Jesus rampages through the commercialised temple, overturning the tables of moneychangers. Who gave you the authority to do these things? his outraged adversaries ask. And Jesus shows us how to answer hostile questions. Slow down. Breathe. Quick arrow prayers!
Your enemies have no power over your life that your Father has not permitted them. Ask your Father for wisdom, remembering: Questions do not need to be answered. Are these questioners worthy of the treasures of your heart? Or would that be feeding pearls to hungry pigs, who might instead devour you?
Questions can contain pitfalls, traps, nooses. Jesus directly answered just three of the 183 questions he was asked, refusing to answer some; answering others with a good question.
But how do we get the inner calm and wisdom to recognise
and sidestep entrapping questions? Long before the day of
testing, practice slow, easy breathing, and tune in to the frequency of the Father. There’s no record of Jesus running, rushing, getting stressed, or lacking peace. He never spoke on his own, he told us, without checking in with the Father. So, no foolish, ill-judged statements. Breathing in the wisdom of the Father beside and within him, he, unintimidated, traps the trappers.
Wisdom begins with training ourselves to slow down and ask
the Father for guidance. Then our calm minds, made perceptive, will help us recognise danger and trick questions, even those coated in flattery, and sidestep them or refuse to answer.
We practice tuning in to heavenly wisdom by practising–asking God questions, and then listening for his answers about the best way to do simple things…organise a home or write. Then, we build upwards, asking for wisdom in more complex things.
Listening for the voice of God before we speak, and asking for a filling of the Spirit, which Jesus calls streams of living water within us, will give us wisdom to know what to say, which, frequently, is nothing at all. It will quieten us with the silence of God, which sings through the world, through sun and stars, sky and flowers.
Especially for @ samheckt Some very imperfect pi Especially for @ samheckt 
Some very imperfect pictures of my labradoodle Merry, and golden retriever Pippi.
And since, I’m on social media, if you are the meditating type, here’s a scriptural meditation on not being afraid, while being prudent. https://anitamathias.com/2024/01/03/do-not-be-afraid-but-do-be-prudent/
A new podcast. Link in bio https://anitamathias.c A new podcast. Link in bio
https://anitamathias.com/2024/01/03/do-not-be-afraid-but-do-be-prudent/
Do Not Be Afraid, but Do Be Prudent
“Do not be afraid,” a dream-angel tells Joseph, to marry Mary, who’s pregnant, though a virgin, for in our magical, God-invaded world, the Spirit has placed God in her. Call the baby Jesus, or The Lord saves, for he will drag people free from the chokehold of their sins.
And Joseph is not afraid. And the angel was right, for a star rose, signalling a new King of the Jews. Astrologers followed it, threatening King Herod, whose chief priests recounted Micah’s 600-year-old prophecy: the Messiah would be born in Bethlehem, as Jesus had just been, while his parents from Nazareth registered for Augustus Caesar’s census of the entire Roman world. 
The Magi worshipped the baby, offering gold. And shepherds came, told by an angel of joy: that the Messiah, a saviour from all that oppresses, had just been born.
Then, suddenly, the dream-angel warned: Flee with the child to Egypt. For Herod plans to kill this baby, forever-King.
Do not be afraid, but still flee? Become a refugee? But lightning-bolt coincidences verified the angel’s first words: The magi with gold for the flight. Shepherds
telling of angels singing of coming inner peace. Joseph flees.
What’s the difference between fear and prudence? Fear is being frozen or panicked by imaginary what-ifs. It tenses our bodies; strains health, sleep and relationships; makes us stingy with ourselves & others; leads to overwork, & time wasted doing pointless things for fear of people’s opinions.
Prudence is wisdom-using our experience & spiritual discernment as we battle the demonic forces of this dark world, in Paul’s phrase.It’s fighting with divinely powerful weapons: truth, righteousness, faith, Scripture & prayer, while surrendering our thoughts to Christ. 
So let’s act prudently, wisely & bravely, silencing fear, while remaining alert to God’s guidance, delivered through inner peace or intuitions of danger and wrongness, our spiritual senses tuned to the Spirit’s “No,” his “Slow,” his “Go,” as cautious as a serpent, protected, while being as gentle as a lamb among wolves.
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