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It’s fun to watch childhood favourites as an adult.
I found Fiddler on the Roof unbearably painful as a teen especially the story of Motel, the earnest well-meaning tailor, who saves all his life for a sewing machine, only to–like the rest of the town’s Jewish community–have his dreams, hopes, ambitions, and material possessions swept away by a pogrom during which they were forcibly relocated.
Still sad now, but I enjoyed the humour this time, esp. the charming milkman Tevye, who thinks aloud as each of his daughters make love matches. “On the one hand. On the other hand. But the light in my daughter’s eyes.” And ultimately gives permission. I enjoyed his comic renderings of interior debate.
However, when one daughter marries a Russian, one of the family’s persecutors, he says, “There is no other hand. How can a fish marry a bird? Where would they make a home?”
A charming celebration of Eastern European shtetl life.
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Gustav Caillebotte
Simon Ponsonby’s Butcher Sermon
Sunday 6th June.
Here was the text, James 3.
1Not many of you should presume to be teachers, my brothers, because you know that we who teach will be judged more strictly.2We all stumble in many ways. If anyone is never at fault in what he says, he is a perfect man, able to keep his whole body in check.
Simon Ponsonby was so overcome by this that he felt unable to preach his sermon, which, ominously for anyone foolhardy enough to pick the passage, began with “Not many of you should presume to be teachers, my brothers, because you know that we who teach will be judged more strictly.”
He preached with great authority, sincerity, rhetorical power–and wow! (to go with the above)–brevity. He was a butcher, he said, and went on to prove it.
Leaning over, he pulled out a massive ox’s tongue, which he lovingly handled, caressing its cartilage, fat and gristle.
An unbeautiful thing, black-streaked. Eee-ooh, the congregation gasped.
Ponsonby said, “You think this is ugly. But this is tongue that has never lied, never cut down someone else, never puffed itself up, never exaggerated, never praised God and then slagged off the vicar!!, never abused, never cursed, never irredeemiably wounded another.”
“From the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks. Salt springs cannot bring forth fresh water.”
He then went on to the lovely injunction in Col. 4:6 “Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt.”
Grace, in the Koine Greek was Charis–gifts, benefits, favours. So, let your speech be full of gifts, benefits, and favours.
And seasoned with salt. Let it be both prudent and savoury.
“Jesus was generous,” Ponsonby said, “when he opened his mouth, gifts came forth.”
He went on to say that we ourselves would be healed and blessed if our tongue spoke blessings.
The whole thing was over in 5 minutes max.
Visibly overcome, he sat down and asked us to use the extra time to reflect and repent in silence on our speech and our hearts.
God willing, Simon Ponsonby’s multi-sensory sermon will stay with us for a while.
May it be so, Lord.
Jesus learned obedience from what he suffered
So it says in the Book of Hebrews.
Most of us, learn from our mistakes. I wish there were a better way of learning. I get several requests these days from people I don’t know, hardly know, and sometimes hardly knew 30 years ago–requests to pick my brain, for information etc. I dispatch them with a line or two, or ignore them if there are several other ways for the person to get the information, or if I have no interest in advising the friend of a “friend” I don’t remember on how to get published or what poem her son should chose for his contest.
When I was in my twenties or thirties, believe it or not, I actually used to spend a lot of time over some of these requests–to read a long-lost friend’s daughter’s college application essay, to read a daughter’s poetry, to write references. What a waste of time!! Now I realise there is a via media between blowing it off, and doing a splendid job. If the person really has no claim on you, dispatch the request in a sentence or two– or if it’s ridiculous, ignore it. The world has already had a saviour, and he wasn’t me.
Jesus did not answer every request. He was kind to those who crossed his path, performing healing with a wave of his hand, but he kept his focus on the 12 he had chosen to invest in. Lucky them!!
Jesus, give me your focus.


What I do is me; For that I came.
The wandering liquid notes
Of cuckoo and mourning dove
Float through our garden
High and full of joy.
They sing because they can,
They sing because they must.
On Milford Sound, I saw dolphins
Leap through the fjord
Like lambs at dusk in the Lakes,
They swoop up because they must.
They cannot contain their joy
As you made the cuckoo
Sing its insistent song,
As you made dolphins leap
With joy through the seas of the world,
You gave me the joy of words.
Help me to make them shine and sing,
As a bird thrills, as fish swish.
Let me use them to praise and play.
Let me rejoice like a bird in the gardens of your world,
Swish like a fish through your seas of mystery.
Help me make words swirl
In this world which sings with wonder
For it is what you have made me to do:
To create loveliness from loveliness.
Overheard at our house. Irene, 11, to Zoe, 15. “I’m really worried.”
Zoe, sounding very concerned. “Why, what’s happened?”
Irene, “I never thought this day would come.”
Zoe, now anxious, “What’s happened, Irene?”
Irene, “Zoe, I am picking up all your habits. I am becoming YOU!”
Roy and I went on a long walk yesterday by the Cherwell river and Christ Church meadows.
Fantastic centuries-old massive, gnarled, contorted sycamore, beech, oak, maple, linden and chestnut trees.
Cool to think of the Wesleys & Whitfield, students at Christ Church and Pembroke respectively doing the same walk. The Botanical Garden is in full bloom.
Prayer truly is the most exciting thing there is. The most exciting thing!
Okay, I volunteered to host a fund-raiser–a garden party–without praying it through thoroughly. Thinking it through, yes, but not praying it through. (A goal of mine is that thinking and praying should be the same thing, that I should filter thoughts through the sieve of prayer. I have not attained that goal!)
It gradually and increasingly looked like it was going to bomb, big time–and few people were going to come–and I was going to look bad. I was getting obsessed and upset about it. It was stealing my peace and joy.
So I prayed and prayed about what I should do about it. How on earth could I get out of it without looking bad, worse than if I went through with it and it flopped, as by all appearances, it was going to?
Could not hear God. The only thing I heard was to do nothing more about it.
Instead, in the time I set to seek God on this project, he gave me clear direction about two other big issues in my life. Not something I was even seeking him about, and not direction that will be easy or pleasant to follow at all, but which will have wonderful effects in my life if I obey. Which I intend to.
I also received direction that I should never again organise parties. I had done it often before; it has always been stressful and difficult for me; I often don’t hugely enjoy it, but continue doing it from force of habit, upbringing, social conditioning. Foolish. Okay, Lord, never again, but what do I do about this thing I have set in motion?
Silence.
I praised God anyway, for what I had learned from the fiasco in the making. Not to do this ever, ever again. Phew!!
And then, deliverance came. We received a call from a lawyer, saying our two girls have been nominated for prestigious fellowships from a Trust, and the interview was on the very day that this event was going to be.
So I guess a perfect reason to cancel. An infinite relief. And I will never again organize these events, but focus on my work.
When one asks God for guidance, ask him to act, he steps in and moulds circumstances in unexpected, miraculous ways. When one asks God to act, one has to accept by faith that he is going to. Praise God!!