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Irene and I are making honey wheat bread. I have never made bread ever before, though the other three members of my family have, so they enjoyed patronising me. What hard work bread-making is!! All that thumping, pounding, and stretching! Waiting & hoping for it to double in size.


Spring, spring projects, a whirlwind. In our family, we parents revolve in as much of a whirlwind of excitement as the children. It was amusing to hear Zoe say, “Mum and Dad, doesn’t your Christian history class resume today? Good, so I’ll have a quiet evening.” Note though, that we’ve spent the last 2 evenings playing card games of their choice! And making pizza. And unpacking the last of our book boxes from America


 Cecilia, our singing teacher in school used to quote Augustine, “He who sings prays twice, Qui cantat, bis orat .” It is indeed amazing how beautiful music lifts and uplifts the sluggish, earthbound spirit. Just listening to Stuart Townsend. “I long to be where the praise is never-ending,. Yearn to dwell where the glory never fades, And cries of “Worthy” will honour the Lamb.


, “ Mum, did you know that I stayed up till 4 a.m. yesterday, reading all the library books we borrowed.” Me, “Yes.” She, “HOW did you know?” “Because I stayed up, doing the same thing.” Though undoubtedly, my reading, an A.S. Byatt novel, and a book on business was less compelling than hers.


I woke up today with the words of Jesus in my head (I wish that happened more often!). “I am sending you out as sheep among wolves. Therefore, be as wise as a serpent, and as innocent as a dove.” What a vivid image! What protection might a lamb, surrounded by a herd of wolves, have? Apparently, two. Wisdom and goodness. No, three: the fact that the eyes of the shepherd are upon it!


How inventions happen. Irene made the most beautiful gingerbread men. Funny thing though: they smelled & tasted of GARLIC. “Irene, did you not wash the spoons and chopping board before using them?” “I did.” Dreadful thought: “Show me the tube you used.” “Dad squeezed it for me.” Fatal words. Intense garlic puree! Garlic “gingerbread” men don’t taste too bad when warm, but I will let Roy & Irene eat them.


 reading John and Carol Arnott’s interesting book on Grace. A quote: “Every negative thing and thought is always of the Enemy, and every postive, life-giving, up-lifting thought is always of the Holy Spirit.When we judge others, it almost always comes out as an accusation. We judge and accuse others and unwittingly find ourselves in agreement with the “accuser of the brethren.” The Holy Spirit is always positive, and Satan is always negative.”


Lots of Family Games this week: Whist, Rummy, Go Fish and Cheat. Articulate and Taboo. We draw lots for teams. Roy and I were together for Articulate and steam-rollered the children. I would have said, “of course,” but to our astonishment, they won at Taboo. I overheard Zoe tell Irene beforehand, “It’s okay, Mum and Dad won’t even know how to do Bendy Bob. Or to draw!”


 Thank you, Google for your alert, but I am not the Anita Mathias, whose obituary you sent me. I am still fully alive.



I love gardening wh. plunges me into the world of nature, its checks & balances. I feed our pet rabbits weeds, shoots, leaves, apple & raspberry branches, strawberry leaves & dandelions. They eat dandelions first. Which prevents our lawn becoming totally weed-infested. What is the best way of dealing with a neglected garden? Tame a bed at a time, starting on that every day, or do a little on different beds each day?


What my ten year old told me on her way out to school, “Have a nice day, Mummy. And blog your heart out.” Cheeky child! I plan to WRITE today, Irene, though yes, I am loving blogging!


. We returned from Europe just before the Eyjafjallajökull Volcano erupted. But we are refinancing our house, & our mortgage consultant is in Thailand. Our children’s teachers are in Greece, Spain & Istanbul, enjoying the extended break. The printer will be late with overseas shipments for our small publishing company. 90% of fresh fruit in the U.K. is imported, and much of veg, so shortages soon…


An underrated aspect of God’s blessing is that it often come through the mind, in the form of good ideas. And an aspect of prayer I often neglect is asking God for good ideas “inspiration” whether on how to tidy a house, write a book, or run a business or parent.


Our cleaning lady from Zimbabwe is singing in rich, high voice as she cleans. She is singing worship songs; I believe I have heard the melodies before. She reminds me of Lena, our previous Brazilian cleaner who also sung as she worked. I love the sound of their singing. It has such a happy feel. Reminds me of Cinderella singing with her broom. Lovely to bring joy, happiness and music into domesticity!


The wisdom of Roy: I was reading an article by a younger friend, and was cross to come across words I didn’t know. (I am a vocabulary freak, and always look up unfamiliar words–with a bit of exaggeration.). Roy, comfortingly: “Don’t worry. When people show off, there is one thing less they know that you don’t!”


Wandered down Cowley Road, trying to find a restaurant. Democracy is far more time-consuming than a dictatorship, but for a family wh. included an American-born 10 year old; a teenager, ditto; & 2 Indian-born middle-agers: decent consensus, the First Floor Restaurant. Pan-Asian cuisine, an Indian, Chinese & Thai buffet. Delicious naan breads, good pullau, good snacks. Great family banter & laughter. Fun!


Nice famil
y walk yesterday through the University Parks from Magdalen College to Norham Gardens where I used to live as a student at Oxford. It was a Bridehead Revisted set, complete with amusing poseurs with better sartorial than punting skills.Everything seemed backlit, tender leaf-green and lush. Willow trees lean
ing into the stream. Ducks and geese on the waters, Families picnicking. Near perfect weather.


Andrew Solomon in his New Yorker article on depression “The Noon-Day Demon,” said “exercise filtered depression from his body”. That’s exactly how it is with me. Running helps enormously, filling me with endorphins, serotonin, high spirits, all that is good. Yoga too fills me with calm, alertness & a sense of well-being. And it’s one of the mysteries of being me that I do these things most days rather than every day!


 Balderdash, given us by Alan and Mary Reed (thank you!). Irene, 10, rapidly got the hang of dictionary sounding definitions. “Scrivello, A antique builder’s tool, like a screw.” Zoe, “2 points for Irene.” Roy, indignantly, “Hey, I said builder’s tool” Zoe, sweetly, “Yes, but Irene wrote it.” We parents crowed over Irene’s genius, each modestly claiming she took after us, while Zoe steadily inched up–and won!


Roy is working in Birmingham, 75 minutes away, today, and after having him at home every day for the last month, I am a bit grumpy about this. Of course, there is less talk, discussion, argument, distraction when he is not at home, but hey, this Penelope business is over-rated. I want him to work at home, from home!



Irene played chess for Oxfordshire U11 girls on board 2 in the National Finals in London, and won all her three games! Yay!


 a very colourful Baisakhi Sikh procession on Cowley Road, Oxford. Irene was delighted to see stuff from her unit on Sikhism. Men in saffron holding enormous glistening kirpans (swords). Women with brilliant sarees, shalwars & long hair. No kaccha, underpants, on display though. The funniest part was the cops on their bikes behind it, regular white Oxford lads, laughing and joking, and looking most out of place.


People who tell others exactly what they think of them are thought of as inappropriate, crazy or very rude. Social conventions demand niceness. Still, what a humiliation for Brown to be caught making nice with that abrupt old lady, then dismissing her, while wired up, as “just a bigoted woman.” I hope it doesn’t affect his campaign as bumbling Brown has more solidity & integrity than Cameron, whom I don’t quite trust



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Well, hello friends! Breaking radio silence to let Well, hello friends! Breaking radio silence to let you know that I have taped a meditation for you on Christ’s famous Parable of the Talents in Matthew 25. https://anitamathias.com/2025/11/05/using-gods-gift-of-our-talents-a-path-to-joy-and-abundance/
Here you are, click the play button in the blog post for a brief meditation, and some moments of peace, and, perhaps, inspiration in your day 🙂
Hi Friends, I have taped a meditation; do listen a Hi Friends, I have taped a meditation; do listen at this link: https://anitamathias.com/2025/04/08/the-kingdom-of-god-is-here-already-yet-not-yet-here-2/
It’s on the Kingdom of God, of which Christ so often spoke, which is here already—a mysterious, shimmering internal palace in which, in lightning flashes, we experience peace and joy, and yet, of course, not yet fully here. We sense the rainbowed presence of Christ in the song which pulses through creation. Christ strolls into our rooms with his wisdom and guidance, and things change. Our prayers are answered; we are healed; our hearts are strangely warmed. Sometimes.
And yet, we also experience evil within & all around us. Our own sin which can shatter our peace and the trajectory of our lives. And the sins of the world—its greed, dishonesty and environmental destruction.
But in this broken world, we still experience the glory of creation; “coincidences” which accelerate once we start praying, and shalom which envelops us like sudden sunshine. The portals into this Kingdom include repentance, gratitude, meditative breathing, and absolute surrender.
The Kingdom of God is here already. We can experience its beauty, peace and joy today through the presence of the Holy Spirit. But yet, since, in the Apostle Paul’s words, we do not struggle only “against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the unseen powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil,” its fullness still lingers…
Our daughter Zoe was ordained into the Church of E Our daughter Zoe was ordained into the Church of England in June. I have been on a social media break… but … better late than never. Enjoy!
First picture has my sister, Shalini, who kindly flew in from the US. Our lovely cousins Anthony and Sarah flank Zoe in the next picture.
The Bishop of London, Sarah Mullaly, ordained Zoe. You can see her praying that Zoe will be filled with the Holy Spirit!!
And here’s a meditation I’ve recorded, which you might enjoy. The link is also in my profile
https://anitamathias.com/2024/11/07/all-those-who-exalt-themselves-will-be-humbled-the-humble-will-be-exalted/
I have taped a meditation on Jesus statement in Ma I have taped a meditation on Jesus statement in Matthew 23, “For those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.”
Do listen here. https://anitamathias.com/2024/11/07/all-those-who-exalt-themselves-will-be-humbled-the-humble-will-be-exalted/
Link also in bio.
And so, Jesus states a law of life. Those who broadcast their amazingness will be humbled, since God dislikes—scorns that, as much as people do.  For to trumpet our success, wealth, brilliance, giftedness or popularity is to get distracted from our life’s purpose into worthless activity. Those who love power, who are sure they know best, and who must be the best, will eventually be humbled by God and life. For their focus has shifted from loving God, doing good work, and being a blessing to their family, friends, and the world towards impressing others, being enviable, perhaps famous. These things are houses built on sand, which will crumble when hammered by the waves of old age, infirmity or adversity. 
God resists the proud, Scripture tells us—those who crave the admiration and power which is His alone. So how do we resist pride? We slow down, so that we realise (and repent) when sheer pride sparks our allergies to people, our enmities, our determination to have our own way, or our grandiose ego-driven goals, and ambitions. Once we stop chasing limelight, a great quietness steals over our lives. We no longer need the drug of continual achievement, or to share images of glittering travel, parties, prizes or friends. We just enjoy them quietly. My life is for itself & not for a spectacle, Emerson wrote. And, as Jesus advises, we quit sharp-elbowing ourselves to sit with the shiniest people, but are content to hang out with ordinary people; and then, as Jesus said, we will inevitably, eventually, be summoned higher to the sparkling conversation we craved. 
One day, every knee will bow before the gentle lamb who was slain, now seated on the throne. We will all be silent before him. Let us live gently then, our eyes on Christ, continually asking for his power, his Spirit, and his direction, moving, dancing, in the direction that we sense him move.
Link to new podcast in Bio https://anitamathias.co Link to new podcast in Bio https://anitamathias.com/2024/02/20/how-jesus-dealt-with-hostility-and-enemies/
3 days before his death, Jesus rampages through the commercialised temple, overturning the tables of moneychangers. Who gave you the authority to do these things? his outraged adversaries ask. And Jesus shows us how to answer hostile questions. Slow down. Breathe. Quick arrow prayers!
Your enemies have no power over your life that your Father has not permitted them. Ask your Father for wisdom, remembering: Questions do not need to be answered. Are these questioners worthy of the treasures of your heart? Or would that be feeding pearls to hungry pigs, who might instead devour you?
Questions can contain pitfalls, traps, nooses. Jesus directly answered just three of the 183 questions he was asked, refusing to answer some; answering others with a good question.
But how do we get the inner calm and wisdom to recognise
and sidestep entrapping questions? Long before the day of
testing, practice slow, easy breathing, and tune in to the frequency of the Father. There’s no record of Jesus running, rushing, getting stressed, or lacking peace. He never spoke on his own, he told us, without checking in with the Father. So, no foolish, ill-judged statements. Breathing in the wisdom of the Father beside and within him, he, unintimidated, traps the trappers.
Wisdom begins with training ourselves to slow down and ask
the Father for guidance. Then our calm minds, made perceptive, will help us recognise danger and trick questions, even those coated in flattery, and sidestep them or refuse to answer.
We practice tuning in to heavenly wisdom by practising–asking God questions, and then listening for his answers about the best way to do simple things…organise a home or write. Then, we build upwards, asking for wisdom in more complex things.
Listening for the voice of God before we speak, and asking for a filling of the Spirit, which Jesus calls streams of living water within us, will give us wisdom to know what to say, which, frequently, is nothing at all. It will quieten us with the silence of God, which sings through the world, through sun and stars, sky and flowers.
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Some very imperfect pictures of my labradoodle Merry, and golden retriever Pippi.
And since, I’m on social media, if you are the meditating type, here’s a scriptural meditation on not being afraid, while being prudent. https://anitamathias.com/2024/01/03/do-not-be-afraid-but-do-be-prudent/
A new podcast. Link in bio https://anitamathias.c A new podcast. Link in bio
https://anitamathias.com/2024/01/03/do-not-be-afraid-but-do-be-prudent/
Do Not Be Afraid, but Do Be Prudent
“Do not be afraid,” a dream-angel tells Joseph, to marry Mary, who’s pregnant, though a virgin, for in our magical, God-invaded world, the Spirit has placed God in her. Call the baby Jesus, or The Lord saves, for he will drag people free from the chokehold of their sins.
And Joseph is not afraid. And the angel was right, for a star rose, signalling a new King of the Jews. Astrologers followed it, threatening King Herod, whose chief priests recounted Micah’s 600-year-old prophecy: the Messiah would be born in Bethlehem, as Jesus had just been, while his parents from Nazareth registered for Augustus Caesar’s census of the entire Roman world. 
The Magi worshipped the baby, offering gold. And shepherds came, told by an angel of joy: that the Messiah, a saviour from all that oppresses, had just been born.
Then, suddenly, the dream-angel warned: Flee with the child to Egypt. For Herod plans to kill this baby, forever-King.
Do not be afraid, but still flee? Become a refugee? But lightning-bolt coincidences verified the angel’s first words: The magi with gold for the flight. Shepherds
telling of angels singing of coming inner peace. Joseph flees.
What’s the difference between fear and prudence? Fear is being frozen or panicked by imaginary what-ifs. It tenses our bodies; strains health, sleep and relationships; makes us stingy with ourselves & others; leads to overwork, & time wasted doing pointless things for fear of people’s opinions.
Prudence is wisdom-using our experience & spiritual discernment as we battle the demonic forces of this dark world, in Paul’s phrase.It’s fighting with divinely powerful weapons: truth, righteousness, faith, Scripture & prayer, while surrendering our thoughts to Christ. 
So let’s act prudently, wisely & bravely, silencing fear, while remaining alert to God’s guidance, delivered through inner peace or intuitions of danger and wrongness, our spiritual senses tuned to the Spirit’s “No,” his “Slow,” his “Go,” as cautious as a serpent, protected, while being as gentle as a lamb among wolves.
Link to post with podcast link in Bio or https://a Link to post with podcast link in Bio or https://anitamathias.com/2023/09/22/dont-walk-away-from-jesus-but-if-you-do-he-still-looks-at-you-and-loves-you/
Jesus came from a Kingdom of voluntary gentleness, in which
Christ, the Lion of Judah, stands at the centre of the throne in the guise of a lamb, looking as if it had been slain. No wonder his disciples struggled with his counter-cultural values. Oh, and we too!
The mother of the Apostles James and John, asks Jesus for a favour—that once He became King, her sons got the most important, prestigious seats at court, on his right and left. And the other ten, who would have liked the fame, glory, power,limelight and honour themselves are indignant and threatened.
Oh-oh, Jesus says. Who gets five talents, who gets one,
who gets great wealth and success, who doesn’t–that the
Father controls. Don’t waste your one precious and fleeting
life seeking to lord it over others or boss them around.
But, in his wry kindness, he offers the ambitious twelve
and us something better than the second or third place.
He tells us how to actually be the most important person to
others at work, in our friend group, social circle, or church:Use your talents, gifts, and energy to bless others.
And we instinctively know Jesus is right. The greatest people in our lives are the kind people who invested in us, guided us and whose wise, radiant words are engraved on our hearts.
Wanting to sit with the cleverest, most successful, most famous people is the path of restlessness and discontent. The competition is vast. But seek to see people, to listen intently, to be kind, to empathise, and doors fling wide open for you, you rare thing!
The greatest person is the one who serves, Jesus says. Serves by using the one, two, or five talents God has given us to bless others, by finding a place where our deep gladness and the world’s deep hunger meet. By writing which is a blessing, hospitality, walking with a sad friend, tidying a house.
And that is the only greatness worth having. That you yourself,your life and your work are a blessing to others. That the love and wisdom God pours into you lives in people’s hearts and minds, a blessing
https://anitamathias.com/.../dont-walk-away-from-j https://anitamathias.com/.../dont-walk-away-from-jesus.../
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So Jesus makes a beautiful offer to the earnest, moral young man who came to him, seeking a spiritual life. Remarkably, the young man claims that he has kept all the commandments from his youth, including the command to love one’s neighbour as oneself, a statement Jesus does not challenge.
The challenge Jesus does offers him, however, the man cannot accept—to sell his vast possessions, give the money to the poor, and follow Jesus encumbered.
He leaves, grieving, and Jesus looks at him, loves him, and famously observes that it’s easier for a camel to squeeze through the eye of a needle than for a rich person to live in the world of wonders which is living under Christ’s kingship, guidance and protection. 
He reassures his dismayed disciples, however, that with God even the treasure-burdened can squeeze into God’s kingdom, “for with God, all things are possible.”
Following him would quite literally mean walking into a world of daily wonders, and immensely rich conversation, walking through Israel, Lebanon, Syria, and Jordan, quite impossible to do with suitcases and backpacks laden with treasure. 
For what would we reject God’s specific, internally heard whisper or directive, a micro-call? That is the idol which currently grips and possesses us. 
Not all of us have great riches, nor is money everyone’s greatest temptation—it can be success, fame, universal esteem, you name it…
But, since with God all things are possible, even those who waver in their pursuit of God can still experience him in fits and snatches, find our spirits singing on a walk or during worship in church, or find our hearts strangely warmed by Scripture, and, sometimes, even “see” Christ stand before us. 
For Christ looks at us, Christ loves us, and says, “With God, all things are possible,” even we, the flawed, entering his beautiful Kingdom.
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