I read Matthew 2 as I blog through the Bible, and realize how much sheer misery and hassle and stress Joseph and Mary and Jesus had to endure for no sin or mistake of their own—but purely because of their destiny, purely because of other people’s jealousy.
Herod was “disturbed” when the Magi said “Where is the one who has been born King of the Jews? We have seen his star in the east.”
No excitement about the one chosen to be King by a higher power, the one whose birth had such cosmic significance that a new star appeared in the heavens.
Instead, he views Jesus as a threat to be eliminated. All he cared about was the security of his own position. He did not hesitate to murder to safeguard it (as people may not hesitate to “backstab” anyone they perceive as a threat).
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And so Joseph, Mary and Jesus go to Egypt, though they have done nothing wrong, leaving behind their familiar language, religion, friends, family, food, customers–purely to escape Herod’s murderous, neurotic wrath.
Have you ever had a major change forced on you because someone was jealous of your gifts? Threatened by you? I have!
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And the death of Herod does not mean instant safety either. They return to Israel when they hear the blessed words, “Those who were trying to take the child’s life are dead.”
But Judea is still not safe. Herod’s son was in charge.
And so, with absolute certainty of the destiny of their toddler, they relocate to an obscure town in Galilee, Nazareth and bring him up there.
Exactly as foretold by the Prophet Isaiah.
All these tangential detours, this apparent wasted effort, this obscurity, this ruination of a nice career arc for Joseph, the upheaval for Mary and the toddler Jesus, all this was exactly in God’s plan.
Why?
We do not know.
We many never know.
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Once we have reached a certain age, we can look back at our lives, and say, “Oh okay, this worked out okay, because it led to this.” “Thank goodness that happened, it closed that door, and opened this.” “That worked out for good, because…”
And other things… Why did Milton– who was desperate to do just one thing: read and write–go blind? Why did my friend Chrissie’s husband wake up one morning and decide “he didn’t want to be a Christian, and didn’t want to be married?” Why did my mother lose her first-born son?
Why does God permit us to be blocked and thwarted through other people’s envy, fears and insecurities? Perhaps an answer is that these blocks channel the force of the stream of our energy and talent into productive directions. Perhaps the stream goes underground and comes out stronger.
Or perhaps, and this is the truest answer, we just don’t know.
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Heck, we are just characters in the story of our lives. We don’t get to control where we were born, or our parents, or their wealth, or social class, or our early education. We don’t get to control our IQ, our looks, our strength, our talents, or our disabilities.
We are but characters in a play someone one is writing and directing, and it is our job to play our part as beautifully as possible, and when it is left to us, to improvise. And since much of the story of our lives, many chapters, are left blank for us to fill in as we please–to improvise as beautifully as possible.
But someone else has written the play, someone else is directing it, and when the plot seems utterly senseless—we relax in the fact that we have had a sneak peek at the last chapter. It will all end in celebration, in exultation, in a feast and endless rejoicing.
And so, when we do not understand the plot twists, we rest content in the brilliance of the author, the auteur, directing the story of our lives.
(And despite all Herod’s machination, he just gets a chapter or so in Jesus’s story. Jesus: He dominates history!)
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Mandy says
This post resonates with me too, as i’m going through a period of healing from scars that i’ve chosen to carry for far to long instead of leaving them at the foot of the cross. Too often I asked why, but finally realised God is so much bigger than my understanding.My story hasn’t always made sense to me, but it makes perfect sense to the Creator.
Anita Mathias says
Just prayed that Christ would continue to heal you (and me!)
Joy Lenton says
A great post, Anita. We all need reminding that our lives are part of a Greater Narrative than the one writ for us. As a character I sure wish I’d had some say in how mine turned out! I wouldn’t have chosen childhood abuse, a broken, dysfunctional family or chronic sickness over many years. But In surrendering to the Author I yield to God’s story, the warp add weft of which is still being wrought in my life and will be revealed as a beautiful tapestry of His grace…one day. The last chapter gives us hope because what we see is but a speck in the eternal purposes and it all ends well – praise God!
Anita Mathias says
How well you’ve written this, Joy. Maybe develop it into a blog post, huh?
Joyphil75 says
Now there’s food for thought! Thanks very much for the idea, support and encouragement that was triggered by your own beautiful prose. Bless you, Anita. 🙂
Debdobalina says
Anita,
This post resonates with me.
The first 7years of my life were pretty idyllic; I thrived as my dad’s only daughter, and the apple of his eye. I gave my heart to Christ before I was 6, and reveled in His love. Within 2 years my family disintegrated, I didn’t see my dad or brothers again for another 7 years, and I gained a stepfather who was a pedophile.
Often I’ve wondered why in the world God allowed my life to take such a detour. It feels like I’ve been dealing with the aftermath of my childhood abuse for decades. But…I know the plans He has for me. I know that He would not allow this sorrow in my life if it didn’t serve some purpose.
We aren’t promised smooth sailing–quite the opposite! Thank you for writing this. Even the Messiah and his family were mistreated because of jealousy and selfishness. How can any of us expect to be treated any better?
Anita Mathias says
Oh, that’s so hard! I just prayed that Abba Father may continue the process of healing your wounds. The writer Mary DeMuth has written a book about her childhood sexual abuse, and her journey of healing from it.
Debra Seiling says
Dear Anita,
I have pinned your blog on Pinterest, as a blog I’m following. Since I’m just learning how to use Pinterest, I’m not sure how to draw traffic to it, but wanted to give your blog credit. Debra Seiling http://bible-passages.blogspot.com and http://christian-overeaters.blogspot.com
Anita Mathias says
Thanks much, Debbie. I am not on Pinterest myself, as can’t keep up with too much social media. Limit myself to the big 3–Blogging, FB and Twitter. Have a GPlus account, but rarely update it.