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Dinner, Supper or Tea?

By Anita Mathias



During the 7.5 years they’ve lived in England, Zoe and Irene have been invited by their classmates for dinner, supper and tea, and have puzzled over the difference.

The words are class-indicators, we’ve said, and not wanted to spell it out further, lest they helpfully repeat our rough class guide to their classmates.
Kate Fox in her 2004 book, Watching the English, sorts out the confusion,

One of the most common indicators of social class in Britain is the name and times of meals.

The evening meal:
  • If you call it “tea“, and eat it at around half past six, you are almost certainly working class or of working class origin. (If you have a tendency to personalize the meal, calling it “my tea”, “our/us tea” and “your tea” – as in “I must be going home for my tea”, “what’s for us tea, love?” or “Come back to mine for your tea” – you are probably northern working class.)
  • If you call the evening meal “dinner“, and eat it at around seven o’clock, you are probably lower-middle or middle-middle class.
  • If you normally only use the term “dinner” for rather more formal evening meals, and call your informal, family evening meal “supper” (pronounced “suppah”), you are probably upper-middle or upper class. The timing of these meals tends to be more flexible, but a family “supper” is generally eaten at around half past seven, while a “dinner” would usually be later, from half past eight onwards.

Both girls are out this evening, incidentally, at friends’ houses. One is having tea, one is having supper, and I shall keep this linguistic post to myself 🙂

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Two Things in Favour of George W. Bush (from someone who abhors his foreign policy)

By Anita Mathias

I was surprised by how deeply upset I was when, as I saw it, Al Gore was cheated out of the Presidency by the shenanigans in Florida in 2000 (when we lived in Virginia).

And I despised Bush’s invasion of Iraq. And sad that he said he woke up at 5 a.m. to pray, read his Bible and Oswald Chamber’s My Utmost for His Highest--and his foreign policy decisions crystallised in those hours. What?! (Tony Blair’s Bible reading at the time before the invasion of Iraq caused a wobble, and rightly so in my mind.)
I like two things about Bush. One is his ingenuous, much ridiculed and memorable statement that Jesus Christ is his favourite philosopher because he changed his heart.
The other is this from an interview with Tim Goeglein, who wrote The Man in the Middle

You had your own experience of sin and grace when a reporter discovered that some words in unpaid pieces you wrote for a newspaper had been taken from other sources. You describe this in your book without flinching. What happened? How does someone in the White House, especially someone as savvy as yourself, start down that road? And how did the President respond when this came to his attention?
I’m pleased to be asked about this. Proverbs is correct: Pride goes before the fall. But in the words of T. S. Eliot, “humility is endless.”
In my time in the White House, I was becoming a very prideful person. This pride and vanity extended to plagiarizing columns for my hometown newspaper. I was not writing about politics, but about many other things that interested me. Pride takes many forms, and one of them is always wanting to be the brightest guy, the one with something interesting to say. I began plagiarizing these columns. I knew what I was doing, and I knew it was wrong.
One morning I came to work at the White House and when I opened my email I found a reporter asking whether this was true that I had plagiarized these columns. I literally fell to the side of my desk. I prayed, “Oh God, oh God.” I knew right away that the world as I had known it was over on that day. I felt, as I say in The Man in the Middle, that my world was collapsing. By return email, I told the reporter that it was entirely true, and I was guilty as charged. I had no one to blame but myself.
There are, in this world, two kinds of crises. One is where it’s beyond your control, and another is where you’re directly responsible. I was directly responsible, without excuse. I inflicted, as a result of my own sin, shame and embarrassment on the President, and on my colleagues and mentors. I had violated everything I believed in, and was a hypocrite to my wife and children and family. Categorically. So I resigned from the White House that day. That was on a Friday.
On a Monday, I came back to the White House to begin clearing out my desk and taking the pictures off the walls. I received a call from Josh Bolton, who had become a friend from the first Bush campaign when we met in Austin, Texas. Josh was now the Chief of Staff, and he said he wanted to see me. I presumed that would be the proverbial “woodshed” moment, which I thoroughly deserved.
The first thing he asked me was, “How are your wife and boys doing?” Then he extended to me his forgiveness. I was genuinely shocked and deeply moved by this. We spent a considerable amount of time together, and before I departed his office he said, “By the way, the boss wants to see you.”
So surely this, I thought, would be the woodshed moment, and again I completely deserved it. I expected other people to be there, but when I got to the Oval Office the only other person there was the executive assistant. I thought I must have come on the wrong day—but the President called me in. I thought: This is going to be really bad. I went in and closed the door.
I turned to him to apologize, but barely got the words out before he looked me in the eyes and said, “Tim, I forgive you.” To say I was stunned would be an understatement. I tried again to apologize, but he wouldn’t let me. He said, “Tim, I’ve known grace and mercy in my life. I’m extending it to you. You’re forgiven.”
I said, “You should have thrown me into Pennsylvania Avenue.” Again he said, “My friend, you’re forgiven. We can talk about all of this, or we can talk about the last eight years.”
I turned to sit on the couch in the Oval Office, but he directed me to the seat of honor beneath the portrait of Washington, where Heads of State sit. I sat there, and he and I had a conversation about two remarkable presidential campaigns, and what was at that point about seven-and-a-half years in the White House. I was by then one of the longest serving aides to the President. We embraced, and I thought this was the last time I would see George W. Bush. As I turned to head out, though, he said, “I want you to bring your wife and boys here, so I can tell them what a great job you’ve done.”
I was stunned and speechless. The leader of the free world, the most powerful man on earth, wanted to affirm me before my wife and children. Sure enough, my wife and boys came, the President gave them a great amount of time in the Oval Office and gave them gifts. We were invited back to the White House as a family on subsequent occasions. We were there at Andrews Air Force Base for his departure. I’ve seen the President a number of times in Texas and he’s never mentioned it again. So, in my mind, George W. Bush is and was grace personified.
So to go back to your earlier question about compassion: I was the wounded man on the side of the highway. I was totally and completely guilty and undeserving of the President’s forgiveness, and yet he gave it to me without reservation. He extended grace to me at the lowest point in my life.

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Living in a Story Still Being Written

By Anita Mathias

Joseph Interprets the Dreams While In Prison - James Tissot
It can take ten thousand years for the light from some of the stars in our galaxy to reach us.

Why should we then expect to immediately understand the story of our lives?
                                                                * * *

Joseph, in the well, abandoned, betrayed.

It seemed meaningless–because the next chapter was yet to be written.

Joseph in charge of Potiphar’s household.

The shepherd boy becomes the head butler in an Egyptian country house.

Was that the meaning of the well, and the humiliations of slavery at the hands of the hairy Ishmaelites?

Part of it. The story was still being written. He was in it. How could he understand it?
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The dungeon, punishment for righteousness.

“But, Lord, I thought I understood the plot you were writing. NOW WHAT are you doing?”

Utterly forsaken.

But the dungeon, you see, was the way for the butler of a small manor to meet royalty itself.

The means of Joseph’s elevation to an entirely different social, economic and political circle.

Let no one underestimate the creativity of the Master Craftsman of the Universe.
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We cannot understand the story of our lives while we are still living them. We do not understand the significance of each plot element yet. It takes the retrospective glance to understand.

And my story? It has foolishness in it, things I have done. It has sin in it, my sin. It has sin in it, sins against me. It has injustice in it, injustices committed against me. It has apparent dead ends, and missed opportunities and incomprehension and heartbreak.

And because a master writer is writing it, it has gold in it, infinite possibilities for redemption. I don’t yet know how God will weave all the plot elements together into an eternal beautiful story, and make it all work out for good, but I know he will. He’s that smart.

And I trust him.


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Relying on God’s strength, not my own

By Anita Mathias

Are you so foolish? After beginning with the Spirit, are you now trying to attain your goal by human effort? (Galatians 3:3).


Funny that that should be one of our struggles, isn’t it, to do things unaided, when aid is available?

It’s certainly one of my struggles. As I wrote yesterday, I am becoming better at waiting to hear God’s directive before I start something.

What I am still no good at is continuing as I started, by relying on God’s power, rather than running in in my own strength.

This is true both for things like blogging or writing, which are strengths, or dieting and exercise, which are weaknesses.

Learning to rely on God’s power and strength, rather than a sort of DIY is going to be a life-long battle.

And until I learn the art of asking for God’s help in my area of weakness, rather than simply failing (diet, exercise) or succeeding by overwork (in leading Bible studies, for instance, a strength, or writing), I guess I will not know what Paul meant when he said, “When I am weak, then I am strong. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” Or hear Christ say, “My grace is sufficient for you. For my power is made perfect in weakness.”

The weaknesses I need to rely on God’s strength for are diet, exercise and disciplining myself to be tidy.

And I also need to rely on God’s help in using my strengths–writing and blogging–so that I don’t exhaust myself, and so that what I write has value.

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“If God doesn’t tell you to do anything, then why are you doing things? Why not just sit at his feet?”

By Anita Mathias

 I am reading, “The Grace Outpouring: Blessing Others Through Prayer. The Amazing Story of God’s Work at Ffald-y-Brenin” by Roy Godwin. Ffald-y-Brenin is a retreat centre in Pembrokeshire National Park, Wales. Roy, Zoe, Irene and I spent a blessed 5 days there in December.

Roy and his wife Daphne, out of their own brokenness, feel called to a retreat centre in Pembrokeshire. They stumble upon the simple act of blessing everyone who comes to them, blessing the valley, blessing the nearby towns. This simple act unleashes miracles–the farmers’ yields go up, the livestock have multiple births, B & B’s win awards, long-submerged streams start flowing. But they don’t seek to convict or convert, just to bless.

* * *

As his retreat centre prospers, and there are miracles, healings and deliverances from oppression, as people encounter the presence of God there, other people come wanting to know his “method.”

But he has no method to pass on. Roy Godwin writes, “The key is searching for God, learning to listen for his voice, burrowing into his heart, listening to what he says, and then doing it, however simple or complex it might be.

If He says it, do it. If He doesn’t tell you to do anything, then why are you doing things? Why not just sit at his feet?”

I love this.

* * *

Because sometimes, God puts you in a place in which learning to hear his voice is absolutely vital and crucial for you. A matter of health and sanity.

For me, as I’ve blogged before, I reached the stage where hearing the voice of God was vital for my life in 2006-2007, when we put both girls into an expensive private school, Oxford High School, and bought our dream house.

It rapidly became obvious that I would need to bring in real money, but how? I had taught Creative Writing at the College of William and Mary before, and found teaching was incompatible with writing, and too great a drain on my energy.

Write rapidly? In retrospect, I wish I had tried that–there have been books knocked off to pay for parent’s funerals (Johnson’s Rasselas) to pay off debts (Dostoevsky’s), but I didn’t have the faith or the energy.

Instead, I decided to start a business. I have three college and university degrees, but all in English and Creative Writing. What an amazing background to start a business with, right?

My first business attempt was exhausting and time-consuming. It was fun (selling antiquarian books) but definitely not sustainable for someone who loves leisure, reading and writing.

And so, as  in Psalm 107, I had to continually cry out to the Lord in my distress, because I was SO tired, and SO overwhelmed, and life was SO hard. And he responded by removing the burden from my shoulders, setting my hands free from the basket. He gave me a sustainable idea–publishing the very antiquarian books which were so in demand when I put them up on auction on Ebay.

And that enterprise was greatly blessed because (as far as I could tell), it came from God’s brain, not mine.

* * *

So I stumbled upon the vital importance of what Roy Godwin says, “Searching for God, learning to listen for his voice, burrowing into his heart, listening to what he says…

I do set aside long hours, mostly on holiday (luckily the rest of my family have more hiking and swimming energy than I have) to seek God’s face, rest in his presence, to run through the details of my life with him, checking in with him about them, seeking his wisdom and guidance and correction on what I am currently doing, and seeking his guidance for the future.

* * *

Now I need to work on the second part of this paragraph, which leapt out at me last night. “If he doesn’t tell you to do anything, then why are you doing things? Why not just sit at his feet?” Indeed!! That is the other part of our life which needs to be put through the sieve when in the presence of God.

The things that are draining and sapping you, did God tell you to do them? No? Then just stop. Why not just sit at his feet and wait?

We need to have drastically pruned lives to bear fruit.

* * *

And so, I am increasingly putting my life through the sieve of God’s will.

What does he want me to do in each area of my life? And what I am currently doing which he never told me to do? And this includes innocuous things, good things, helpful things–but which, however, are not things that God told me to do.

 

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A Reward from God

By Anita Mathias

5 “And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. 6 But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. Matthew 6:5





We are promised a reward from God for each of our secret disciplines–giving, praying and fasting.

That’s sounds wonderful–and intriguing. A reward from God? I wonder what it will look like!

I WANT IT!

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The Paradox Project: Gaining by Losing. #2

By Anita Mathias

Last Monday, I decided to have another bash at health and fitness: my Paradox Project: Gaining Health and Closeness to God, by losing weight.

Well, I started slowly. Have lost 2 pounds this week. It’s better to start slowly because a spectacular weight loss can set you up for disappointment when it cannot be sustained.
It’s funny, I was praying last Monday, and perhaps for the first time in my life admitted that I could not lose weight on my own, because the habits of seeking pleasure, comfort and relief from boredom through food were too engrained. So I asked God to help me.
Then immediately after I finished praying, coincidence or God-incidence, I had a new twitter follower, and checked out his linked blog. And he was using a free online Christian weight-loss programme called settingcaptivesfree.com.
It links you to a mentor, who prays for you and emails you daily. I am only in Day 8 and so far think it’s good and Biblically based. (Caveat: I am not recommending or not-recommending it, just telling you I am doing it. Will need to finish it before I can recommend it).
The programme has an emphasis on fasting, and uses John Piper’s book A Hunger for God: Desiring God through Fasting and Prayer, which I have bought, and which is excellent.
And which, sigh, I am practising. Nothing drastic, just a little mild fasting, and using the time of extreme hunger and weakness to lie down and seek the face of Christ. I find that incredibly refreshing and joyful, to tell the truth. So far, I have just been enjoying the presence of God, but this week will seek guidance on the year to come, and intercede for my family.
I will increasingly use the periods of fasting, when I feel too weak to do anything else, to study Scripture, and maybe blog about it.
So far, so good. Fasting is not easy for me. Scientifically speaking, as one fasts, one burns stores fat, which sends toxins and ketones into the bloodstream. So, depending on one’s past eating habits, this detoxification is naturally not pleasant–running on burning toxins rather than fresh food. No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. Hebrews 12: 11.

On the whole, this experiment in prayer and fasting is an interesting one, and I am praying that God blesses it.

So, have you lost a significant amount of weight? What helped you do it?

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Personal Facebook Status Updates

By Anita Mathias

 

Most Read Posts on Dreaming Beneath the Spires.
1 When to fail quickly and quit.
2 1001 Gifts: My New Church

My Last Two Months in Facebook Statuses
Watched the last Harry Potter with some sadness. End of an era. We started on them in 2002, had each book delivered at the crack of dawn on publication day, I read each of them to the kids, we saw each movie as soon as possible. We’ve listened to the whole series on tape. What a rich, complex, enchanting world! What a pity it had to end!
Like ·   · 24 July
So Zoe returned from her Creative Writing week at Arvon in love with poetry, literature and writing!! She’s reading “The Puzzle of God,” and declares she adores philosophy, which she’s taking as an A level. I’ve never had much time for philosophy, and neither has Roy, so it’s good to see the kids stake our their own territory and interests!
Like ·   · 24 July
Had a superb dinner of sausages and homegrown baby potatoes, and homegrown swiss chard and leaf chard. In my 40ies, and I have just learned a) that potatoes have purple and yellow flowers B) that new potatoes are ready to be harvested when the plants flower. Duh! The asparagus we planted this spring looks beautiful–and will be ready in 2013. 2013!!
Like ·   · 31 July
So, my little skeptic, Irene, just called from the Lymington Rushmore Christian Adventure camp to say she is SO MUCH deeper spiritually and “100% converted.” ( She added that her best friend, Alice, who went with her, and with whom she’s lovingly competitive, is only 80% converted!!) Zoe is at a 16-18 year old Scripture Union camp in the Lake District, and Roy and I are enjoying the peace and quiet.
Like ·   · 01 August
Leaving tomorrow for Sweden. Both girls completely packed, with rooms tidied for the housesitters. The mum, however, has spent the day nursing her laptop, playing on her beloved blog, getting her iPad working, tethering her iPhone, so that her internet deprivation won’t be too severe. Roy hasn’t started thinking about packing. Zoe Mathias says, “We think if we were the parents, things would be so much better” Humph!
Like ·   · 11 August
Okay, Stockholm is FAR, FAR more enchanting than I imagined. Magical. Yesterday, we hiked in the Tyresta National Park right in Stockholm. Today, canoed around the Stockholm islands for hours. Exhausting, but fun. Also walked for a couple of hours around Gamla Stan, the medieval quarter with tiny hairline alleys, barely 3 feet wide!! and pastel painted overhanging buildings. Fun!
Like ·   · 14 August
Enjoyed Carolus Linnaeus’s garden in Uppsala, an interesting specimen garden, and Uppsala Cathedral, the largest in Scandinavia, massive with lovely paintings on the noble granite. Now in Gothenburg–visiting the amazing botanical garden–with the largest hothouses in the world, larger than Kew, with Scandinavian orchids. Night walk on the beautiful beach on which we are wild motorhome camping!
Like ·   · 17 August
Had a lovely day on Sillvik Beach, near Gothenburg Sweden. Basically spent the whole day lolling out on the smooth grey rocks, unusually indolent for me, but incredibly relaxing. Tried some more good, down to earth, hearty Swedish food in a beach cafe for lunch, and liked it.
Like ·   · 18 August
Overheard in our motorhome. Irene whispers to Zoe, “Mum is cross with me. Will she be cross all holiday?” Zoe whispers back to Irene, “You know Mum. She won’t remember tomorrow. She’s a new person each morning.” And thus reassured, we all go to sleep, murmuring together, “Star Light, Star Bright. First star I see tonight. I wish I may, I wish I might, Have the wish I wish tonight.” Good night!
Like ·   · 18 August
So Zoe got her GCSE results today. All A*’s and A’s, thank goodness, and more A* the highest possible grade than A’s. She took Greek, Latin, French, Drama and History as her optional subjects. Now she starts A levels–Theology, Philosophy, French and English. Hey, I half wish I were 16 again and studying them!!
Like ·   · 25 August
oe and Irene caught a plane to India today for 10 days–just 48 hours after we returned from Sweden. Roy and I are spending the long weekend at the Greenbelt Christian Festival. It started today, but alas, I was fighting a fluish cough and decided not to go. Also, it’s feels good to be home after 2 weeks hectic exploring of Sweden–which is a very beautiful country, with nice people.
Like ·   · 26 August
Well, after 12 years of the whirlwind that Irene has been, we are not devastated to share her. Irene and Zoe are in India for the week, visiting my mother, while her namesake visits Williamsburg, Virginia, our old stomping ground. Stay safe, friends in Williamsburg!! I still remember Isabel!
Like ·   · 27 August
Roy and I have had a perfectly wonderful and very peaceful week, puttering, pottering, reading and writing while the girls were in India. They left on the 26th Aug. and will be back tomorrow. Imagine a sweet shaggy sheepdog and a big bounding golden retriever invading a sanctum of quiet middle-aged bliss. Yes, you’ve got it!
Like ·   · 03 September
Okay, so Zoe, Irene, 4 suitcases and bags of presents, and lots of noise and excitement are back home. Roy spent yesterday tidying their rooms and baking and icing them cakes with their names. “I like them,” he said. “They are nice girls!” Well, I agree on both counts, but fortunately, have never tried or learnt to bake a cake!!
Like ·   · 04 September
Ha! Nothing like starting the weekend with a nice, clean, tidy house. My grumpiest day of the week is Thursday when the impending visit of the cleaner is our cue to get everything put back in the right place. I am really cross then at the waste of time, but then, on Friday evening, to see everything clean and tidy=bliss!! Irene has a friend over, in her immaculate room, and of course, is pretending we always live like this!!
Like ·   · 09 September
Inspiring, Holy Spirit filled service at St. Andrew’s, North Oxford. Highly recommended! Our family moved there from St. Aldate’s around Easter, and though we miss aspects of Aldate’s, this does feel like a place of blessing, healing and creativity for our family. Though we hope to see lots of you around town, FB friends from St. Aldate’s!!
Like ·   · 11 September
Overheard at our house. “Mum, what should I write my religion and philosophy term paper on? He said, “Choose whatever you interested in.” Me, “Write on whatever you are interested in.” She, “But I need you to tell me what I am interested in.” Me, “How should I know?” She, “Mum, whenever I NEED you to have an opinion, you have none.” Yeah, mums are awkward like that!
Like ·   · 12 September
I go away for three weeks in August, and my garden turns feral! It’s suddenly feels so overgrown, and the work to turn it into a tidy English country garden seems overwhelming. Tempted to wait until everything drops off of its own accord, and start next spring with secaturs. However, our Rocket autumn/winter veggie garden is coming soon, so off I go to the veg garden.
Like ·   · 14 September
We’ve got one of those body fat measuring scales. Roy’s body fat logs in at 18%, and his metabolic age at 34. My metabolic age, that scale says, is 54! Grr. And I’m not even 50! Okay, then to the garden I go, to heave dirt and build muscle.
Like ·   · 14 September
Hey guys, check out t. guest posts on http://dreamingbeneaththespires.blogspot.com/2011/09/meek-shall-inherit-earth-guest-post-by_3384.html on the Old Testament statement echoed by Jesus–The Meek Shall Inherit the Earth. To come: Dick Woodward, Virginia Lea Woodward, Jan & Karoline Sassenberg etc. Much flack from Roy who claims I’m assembling the evidence on the rewards of meekness before I commit! No, this fiery, feisty girl honestly wants to become gentler & sweeter
Wow. Stuck on a line I didn’t understand. Which is–can you guess?–“The Meek Shall Inherit the Earth.” Discovered a great resource which collates numerous commentaries. Scroll through to the bottom. It’s great. Okay, studying over, now to the doing of it. Sigh!!
bible.cc/matthew/5-5.htm .
There was a talk in the Greenbelt programme this summer, “The Meek Shall Inherit the Earth.” The speaker seemed to assert they do. I had a hard time with this concept, and kept puzzling over it. I have invited a series of guest posts on my blog on this theme–Dick Woodward will be writing tomorrow–and now am trying to write my own post. It’s a core Scriptural value, and so I praying for wisdom and insight to see how it might be true!!
Like ·   · 16 September
Okay, after keeping the kids TV free for 16 and 12 years respectively, one has succumbed. And to what? Irene watched The Great British Bake Off obsessively–and baked several delicious cakes this weekend. Like a true chef, she prefers creating to savouring. And guess who does the savouring. Sigh!!
Like ·   · 20 September
In the good old days, I researched and chose family DVDs myself. Now, the girls chose 50 percent of them. So this weekend, we watched “500 Days of Summer,” which was cleverly and innovatively presented, but essentially silly and vapid, and “Annie,” the musical. Can’t say I didn’t enjoy them a bit, but then one asks, “Well, what was the point of THAT?”
Like ·   · 20 September
Roy has been using this great time-management strategy for the last 3 weeks. http://dreamingbeneaththespires.blogspot.com/2011/08/best-way-i-know-to-dramatically.html. It’s amazing how we’ve cleared the most urgent things off our plates, have nothing “urgent” on them anymore, and are generally feeling more relaxed and caught-up!! And it was relatively simple!
Aaargh. I seem to be getting lots of colds of late. I am sure it’s the change of season, but obviously my immune system could be stronger. Any tips? What can I do about this period of one sniffle after another. Sigh!!
I will be blogging for the Big Bible’s (http://bigbible.org.uk/) new initiative, Digital Disciples, which focuses on being a disciple of Christ in our digital age. I will be guest-blogging on the 24th of every month, from October (skipping Christmas Eve, of course) on “The Vocation and Ministry of Christian Blogging and Writing” My family suggests I write a post on what NOT to do as a Christian blogger; friends from St. Aldate’s Church will appreciate that in-joke 🙂
‎”God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us.” (Ephesians 3)
Like ·   · 29 September
Zoe and Irene visited India on their own this summer–reprising their solo visit in 2009. Zoe now has a new complaint, “Mum, you’re being all Indian.” “Don’t be so Indian, mum!” It’s 27 years (to the day!) since I left India for Oxford–and the first time I’ve been accused of being Indian. My crime:telling Irene reading or studying was a better use of time than baking (her new passion) or watching “The Great British Bake-off,” her latest passion.
Like ·   · 29 September
Roy has been working from home since June 2010. He’s become super-organised, and usually has something in the oven for when the girls come home. Lancashire hot-pot today. Beef stew, lamb roast, and roast duck are some of his other specialties. His latest saying, “Men should run houses; we do SO much better!”
Like ·   · 03 October
Ah, Roy’s latest culinary achievement–pretty darn good homemade, whole wheat bread. And it wasn’t too hard either. Thanks, Klaudia for giving us the idea. I think he is going to go on experimenting until he’s got it perfected!
Looking forward to a quiet family weekend of movies and maybe board games. Thanks to Ruth and Matthew for introducing us to new ones in my first board games evening in years. I also enjoyed having Lesley Crawley, AlanCrawley, Erika Baker and Klaudia Schwenk here for lunch. They motivated me to get my house all picked up and tidy:)

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Hi Friends, I have taped a meditation; do listen a Hi Friends, I have taped a meditation; do listen at this link: https://anitamathias.com/2025/04/08/the-kingdom-of-god-is-here-already-yet-not-yet-here-2/
It’s on the Kingdom of God, of which Christ so often spoke, which is here already—a mysterious, shimmering internal palace in which, in lightning flashes, we experience peace and joy, and yet, of course, not yet fully here. We sense the rainbowed presence of Christ in the song which pulses through creation. Christ strolls into our rooms with his wisdom and guidance, and things change. Our prayers are answered; we are healed; our hearts are strangely warmed. Sometimes.
And yet, we also experience evil within & all around us. Our own sin which can shatter our peace and the trajectory of our lives. And the sins of the world—its greed, dishonesty and environmental destruction.
But in this broken world, we still experience the glory of creation; “coincidences” which accelerate once we start praying, and shalom which envelops us like sudden sunshine. The portals into this Kingdom include repentance, gratitude, meditative breathing, and absolute surrender.
The Kingdom of God is here already. We can experience its beauty, peace and joy today through the presence of the Holy Spirit. But yet, since, in the Apostle Paul’s words, we do not struggle only “against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the unseen powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil,” its fullness still lingers…
Our daughter Zoe was ordained into the Church of E Our daughter Zoe was ordained into the Church of England in June. I have been on a social media break… but … better late than never. Enjoy!
First picture has my sister, Shalini, who kindly flew in from the US. Our lovely cousins Anthony and Sarah flank Zoe in the next picture.
The Bishop of London, Sarah Mullaly, ordained Zoe. You can see her praying that Zoe will be filled with the Holy Spirit!!
And here’s a meditation I’ve recorded, which you might enjoy. The link is also in my profile
https://anitamathias.com/2024/11/07/all-those-who-exalt-themselves-will-be-humbled-the-humble-will-be-exalted/
I have taped a meditation on Jesus statement in Ma I have taped a meditation on Jesus statement in Matthew 23, “For those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.”
Do listen here. https://anitamathias.com/2024/11/07/all-those-who-exalt-themselves-will-be-humbled-the-humble-will-be-exalted/
Link also in bio.
And so, Jesus states a law of life. Those who broadcast their amazingness will be humbled, since God dislikes—scorns that, as much as people do.  For to trumpet our success, wealth, brilliance, giftedness or popularity is to get distracted from our life’s purpose into worthless activity. Those who love power, who are sure they know best, and who must be the best, will eventually be humbled by God and life. For their focus has shifted from loving God, doing good work, and being a blessing to their family, friends, and the world towards impressing others, being enviable, perhaps famous. These things are houses built on sand, which will crumble when hammered by the waves of old age, infirmity or adversity. 
God resists the proud, Scripture tells us—those who crave the admiration and power which is His alone. So how do we resist pride? We slow down, so that we realise (and repent) when sheer pride sparks our allergies to people, our enmities, our determination to have our own way, or our grandiose ego-driven goals, and ambitions. Once we stop chasing limelight, a great quietness steals over our lives. We no longer need the drug of continual achievement, or to share images of glittering travel, parties, prizes or friends. We just enjoy them quietly. My life is for itself & not for a spectacle, Emerson wrote. And, as Jesus advises, we quit sharp-elbowing ourselves to sit with the shiniest people, but are content to hang out with ordinary people; and then, as Jesus said, we will inevitably, eventually, be summoned higher to the sparkling conversation we craved. 
One day, every knee will bow before the gentle lamb who was slain, now seated on the throne. We will all be silent before him. Let us live gently then, our eyes on Christ, continually asking for his power, his Spirit, and his direction, moving, dancing, in the direction that we sense him move.
Link to new podcast in Bio https://anitamathias.co Link to new podcast in Bio https://anitamathias.com/2024/02/20/how-jesus-dealt-with-hostility-and-enemies/
3 days before his death, Jesus rampages through the commercialised temple, overturning the tables of moneychangers. Who gave you the authority to do these things? his outraged adversaries ask. And Jesus shows us how to answer hostile questions. Slow down. Breathe. Quick arrow prayers!
Your enemies have no power over your life that your Father has not permitted them. Ask your Father for wisdom, remembering: Questions do not need to be answered. Are these questioners worthy of the treasures of your heart? Or would that be feeding pearls to hungry pigs, who might instead devour you?
Questions can contain pitfalls, traps, nooses. Jesus directly answered just three of the 183 questions he was asked, refusing to answer some; answering others with a good question.
But how do we get the inner calm and wisdom to recognise
and sidestep entrapping questions? Long before the day of
testing, practice slow, easy breathing, and tune in to the frequency of the Father. There’s no record of Jesus running, rushing, getting stressed, or lacking peace. He never spoke on his own, he told us, without checking in with the Father. So, no foolish, ill-judged statements. Breathing in the wisdom of the Father beside and within him, he, unintimidated, traps the trappers.
Wisdom begins with training ourselves to slow down and ask
the Father for guidance. Then our calm minds, made perceptive, will help us recognise danger and trick questions, even those coated in flattery, and sidestep them or refuse to answer.
We practice tuning in to heavenly wisdom by practising–asking God questions, and then listening for his answers about the best way to do simple things…organise a home or write. Then, we build upwards, asking for wisdom in more complex things.
Listening for the voice of God before we speak, and asking for a filling of the Spirit, which Jesus calls streams of living water within us, will give us wisdom to know what to say, which, frequently, is nothing at all. It will quieten us with the silence of God, which sings through the world, through sun and stars, sky and flowers.
Especially for @ samheckt Some very imperfect pi Especially for @ samheckt 
Some very imperfect pictures of my labradoodle Merry, and golden retriever Pippi.
And since, I’m on social media, if you are the meditating type, here’s a scriptural meditation on not being afraid, while being prudent. https://anitamathias.com/2024/01/03/do-not-be-afraid-but-do-be-prudent/
A new podcast. Link in bio https://anitamathias.c A new podcast. Link in bio
https://anitamathias.com/2024/01/03/do-not-be-afraid-but-do-be-prudent/
Do Not Be Afraid, but Do Be Prudent
“Do not be afraid,” a dream-angel tells Joseph, to marry Mary, who’s pregnant, though a virgin, for in our magical, God-invaded world, the Spirit has placed God in her. Call the baby Jesus, or The Lord saves, for he will drag people free from the chokehold of their sins.
And Joseph is not afraid. And the angel was right, for a star rose, signalling a new King of the Jews. Astrologers followed it, threatening King Herod, whose chief priests recounted Micah’s 600-year-old prophecy: the Messiah would be born in Bethlehem, as Jesus had just been, while his parents from Nazareth registered for Augustus Caesar’s census of the entire Roman world. 
The Magi worshipped the baby, offering gold. And shepherds came, told by an angel of joy: that the Messiah, a saviour from all that oppresses, had just been born.
Then, suddenly, the dream-angel warned: Flee with the child to Egypt. For Herod plans to kill this baby, forever-King.
Do not be afraid, but still flee? Become a refugee? But lightning-bolt coincidences verified the angel’s first words: The magi with gold for the flight. Shepherds
telling of angels singing of coming inner peace. Joseph flees.
What’s the difference between fear and prudence? Fear is being frozen or panicked by imaginary what-ifs. It tenses our bodies; strains health, sleep and relationships; makes us stingy with ourselves & others; leads to overwork, & time wasted doing pointless things for fear of people’s opinions.
Prudence is wisdom-using our experience & spiritual discernment as we battle the demonic forces of this dark world, in Paul’s phrase.It’s fighting with divinely powerful weapons: truth, righteousness, faith, Scripture & prayer, while surrendering our thoughts to Christ. 
So let’s act prudently, wisely & bravely, silencing fear, while remaining alert to God’s guidance, delivered through inner peace or intuitions of danger and wrongness, our spiritual senses tuned to the Spirit’s “No,” his “Slow,” his “Go,” as cautious as a serpent, protected, while being as gentle as a lamb among wolves.
Link to post with podcast link in Bio or https://a Link to post with podcast link in Bio or https://anitamathias.com/2023/09/22/dont-walk-away-from-jesus-but-if-you-do-he-still-looks-at-you-and-loves-you/
Jesus came from a Kingdom of voluntary gentleness, in which
Christ, the Lion of Judah, stands at the centre of the throne in the guise of a lamb, looking as if it had been slain. No wonder his disciples struggled with his counter-cultural values. Oh, and we too!
The mother of the Apostles James and John, asks Jesus for a favour—that once He became King, her sons got the most important, prestigious seats at court, on his right and left. And the other ten, who would have liked the fame, glory, power,limelight and honour themselves are indignant and threatened.
Oh-oh, Jesus says. Who gets five talents, who gets one,
who gets great wealth and success, who doesn’t–that the
Father controls. Don’t waste your one precious and fleeting
life seeking to lord it over others or boss them around.
But, in his wry kindness, he offers the ambitious twelve
and us something better than the second or third place.
He tells us how to actually be the most important person to
others at work, in our friend group, social circle, or church:Use your talents, gifts, and energy to bless others.
And we instinctively know Jesus is right. The greatest people in our lives are the kind people who invested in us, guided us and whose wise, radiant words are engraved on our hearts.
Wanting to sit with the cleverest, most successful, most famous people is the path of restlessness and discontent. The competition is vast. But seek to see people, to listen intently, to be kind, to empathise, and doors fling wide open for you, you rare thing!
The greatest person is the one who serves, Jesus says. Serves by using the one, two, or five talents God has given us to bless others, by finding a place where our deep gladness and the world’s deep hunger meet. By writing which is a blessing, hospitality, walking with a sad friend, tidying a house.
And that is the only greatness worth having. That you yourself,your life and your work are a blessing to others. That the love and wisdom God pours into you lives in people’s hearts and minds, a blessing
https://anitamathias.com/.../dont-walk-away-from-j https://anitamathias.com/.../dont-walk-away-from-jesus.../
Sharing this podcast I recorded last week. LINK IN BIO
So Jesus makes a beautiful offer to the earnest, moral young man who came to him, seeking a spiritual life. Remarkably, the young man claims that he has kept all the commandments from his youth, including the command to love one’s neighbour as oneself, a statement Jesus does not challenge.
The challenge Jesus does offers him, however, the man cannot accept—to sell his vast possessions, give the money to the poor, and follow Jesus encumbered.
He leaves, grieving, and Jesus looks at him, loves him, and famously observes that it’s easier for a camel to squeeze through the eye of a needle than for a rich person to live in the world of wonders which is living under Christ’s kingship, guidance and protection. 
He reassures his dismayed disciples, however, that with God even the treasure-burdened can squeeze into God’s kingdom, “for with God, all things are possible.”
Following him would quite literally mean walking into a world of daily wonders, and immensely rich conversation, walking through Israel, Lebanon, Syria, and Jordan, quite impossible to do with suitcases and backpacks laden with treasure. 
For what would we reject God’s specific, internally heard whisper or directive, a micro-call? That is the idol which currently grips and possesses us. 
Not all of us have great riches, nor is money everyone’s greatest temptation—it can be success, fame, universal esteem, you name it…
But, since with God all things are possible, even those who waver in their pursuit of God can still experience him in fits and snatches, find our spirits singing on a walk or during worship in church, or find our hearts strangely warmed by Scripture, and, sometimes, even “see” Christ stand before us. 
For Christ looks at us, Christ loves us, and says, “With God, all things are possible,” even we, the flawed, entering his beautiful Kingdom.
https://anitamathias.com/2023/09/07/how-to-find-th https://anitamathias.com/2023/09/07/how-to-find-the-freedom-of-forgiveness/
How to Find the Freedom of Forgiveness
Letting go on anger and forgiving is both an emotional transaction & a decision of the will. We discover we cannot command our emotions to forgive and relinquish anger. So how do we find the space and clarity of forgiveness in our mind, spirit & emotions?
When tormenting memories surface, our cortisol, adrenaline, blood pressure, and heart rate all rise. It’s good to take a literally quick walk with Jesus, to calm this neurological and physiological storm. And then honestly name these emotions… for feelings buried alive never die.
Then, in a process called “the healing of memories,” mentally visualise the painful scene, seeing Christ himself there, his eyes brimming with compassion. Ask Christ to heal the sting, to draw the poison from these memories of experiences. We are caterpillars in a ring of fire, as Martin Luther wrote--unable to rescue ourselves. We need help from above.
Accept what happened. What happened, happened. Then, as the Apostle Paul advises, give thanks in everything, though not for everything. Give thanks because God can bring good out of the swindle and the injustice. Ask him to bring magic and beauty from the ashes.
If, like the persistent widow Jesus spoke of, you want to pray for justice--that the swindler and the abusers’ characters are revealed, so many are protected, then do so--but first, purify your own life.
And now, just forgive. Say aloud, I forgive you for … You are setting a captive free. Yourself. Come alive. Be free. 
And when memories of deep injuries arise, say: “No. No. Not going there.” Stop repeating the devastating story to yourself or anyone else. Don’t waste your time & emotional energy, nor let yourself be overwhelmed by anger at someone else’s evil actions. Don’t let the past poison today. Refuse to allow reinjury. Deliberately think instead of things noble, lovely, admirable, excellent, and praiseworthy.
So keep trying, in obedience, to forgive, to let go of your anger until you suddenly realise that you have forgiven, and can remember past events without agitation. God be with us!
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