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The Toxicity of Unexpressed Creativity Leads to Physical and Mental Illness, and Addictions

By Anita Mathias

The-War-of-Art_straight_1024x1024I love this startling chapter “The Unlived Life,” from Steven Pressfield’s great book, “The War of Art.”

The rest of this post is a quote from this prescient chapter:

“Most of us have two lives. The life we live, and the unlived life within us. Between the two stands Resistance.

Have you ever brought home a treadmill and let it gather dust in the attic? Ever resolved on a diet, a course of yoga, a meditation practice? Have you ever felt a call to embark upon a spiritual practice, dedicate yourself to a humanitarian calling, commit your life to the service of others? Late at night have you experienced a vision of the person you might become, the work you could accomplish, the realized being you were meant to be?

Are you a writer who doesn’t write, a painter who doesn’t paint, an entrepreneur who never starts a venture? Then you know what Resistance is.

One night I was layin’ down,
I heard Papa talkin’ to Mama.
I heard Papa say, to let that boy boogie-woogie.

‘Cause it’s in him
and it’s got to come out.
—John Lee Hooker, ‘Boogie Chillen.”

Resistance is the most toxic force on the planet. It is the root of more unhappiness than poverty, disease and erectile dysfunction. To yield to Resistance deforms our spirit. It stunts us and makes us less than we are and were born to be. If you believe in God (and I do) you must declare Resistance evil, for it prevents us from achieving the life God intended when He endowed each of us with our own unique genius.

Every sun casts a shadow, and genius’s shadow is resistance. As powerful as is our soul’s call to realization, so potent are the forces of resistance arrayed against it. We are not alone if we are mowed down by Resistance. Millions of good men and women have bitten the dust before us.

Have you heard this story? Woman learns she has cancer, six months to live. Within days she quits her job, resumes the dream of studying classical Greek she gave up to raise a family. Women’s friends think she’s crazy; she herself has never been happier. There’s a postscript. Woman’s cancer goes into remission.

Is that what it takes? Do we have to stare death in the face to make us stand up and confront Resistance? Does Resistance have to cripple and disfigure our lives before we wake up to its existence?

How many of us have become drunks and drug addicts, developed tumours and neuroses, succumbed to painkillers, gossip and compulsive cell-phone use simply because we don’t do that thing that our hearts, our inner genius, is calling us to? Resistance defeats us.

If tomorrow morning, by some stroke of magic, every dazed and benighted soul woke up with the power to take the first step toward pursuing his or her dreams, every shrink in the directory would be out of business. Prisons would stand empty. The alcohol and tobacco industries would collapse, along with the junk food, cosmetic surgery, and infotainment businesses, not to mention pharmaceutical companies, hospitals, and the medical profession from top to bottom. Domestic violence would become extinct, as would addiction, obesity, migraines and road rage.

Look into your heart. Unless I’m crazy, right now a still small voice is piping up, telling you as it has ten thousand times, the calling that is yours and yours alone. You know it. No one has to tell you. And are you no closer to taking action on it than you were yesterday or will be tomorrow? You think Resistance isn’t real? Resistance will bury you.”

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  1. LA says

    August 31, 2013 at 12:35 pm

    I find that people who follow their dreams with abandon like this have several scenarios or a combination of these: 1) they have a spouse with a solid money maker job, 2) they have no kids, 3) they have very little money and rely on others for their entire lives. The reality of the world is that our lives do not allow for such frivolity with abandon..unfortunately, our society has engineered our lives differently.
    That being said, however, I think our dreams change based on our circumstances. Take for instance a friend of mine who has a severely autistic child. Was her dream to take care of an intensive-need son? Certainly not. And had she pursued her true dream in life, her son would have gone into an institution because she would have not made enough money for his needs. But her dream morphed and changed and became a dream to make her son’s life as awesome as it could be. And that takes 100% of her waking time…and her original dream for her life sits in the attic…and that’s ok with her.

    • Anita Mathias says

      September 2, 2013 at 9:46 pm

      In general though, following your dream is not a 24/7 proposition. Though it is frustrating to only put in an hour or two or less on your dream, it is less frustrating than doing anything at all.

      Ideally, one finances one’s dream until it finances you. However, that is not yet the case with me. Will it ever be? Who knows. But following my dream, even if I fail, brings me great pleasure and joy!

  2. Jo A says

    August 27, 2013 at 6:07 pm

    If by some stroke of magic everyone took the first steps to living their dreams then… rubbish bins would overflow, supermarkets would run out of stock, houses would be uncleaned, parcels undelivered, taxis undriven, people with learning disabilities uncared for, the vulnerable elderly neglected, sewers stay blocked, streets unswept, ….

    • Anita Mathias says

      August 28, 2013 at 2:48 pm

      Oh come on. We are awake for at least 16 hours, and work for 8, on average + commute. Loads of people takes steps towards living their dreams while working.
      What are your dreams, Jo? Feel free to message me through my Facebook public page, which i think you follow, if you like.

  3. Kathy says

    August 27, 2013 at 5:31 pm

    This posting has reignited my desire to continue writing as well as to pull out my paints (which probably have dried up by now). Resistance is a lethal choice as I have found myself torn between my desire to write and the lure of the mundane chores of running a home, keeping a yard up, etc. So I’ll carve out time and begin to express the feelings and words within my spirit. Thanks for jolting me out of my complacency and pushing me into experiencing my calling.

    • Anita Mathias says

      August 28, 2013 at 2:49 pm

      “the mundane chores of running a home, keeping a yard up.”
      I find it helps to say, “Let people judge me if they want. I will do some of what makes me come alive.”

  4. Keith Schooley says

    August 26, 2013 at 10:59 pm

    I so believe you. But I have a family to take care of. So, how?

    (But thank you for expressing it anyway.)

    • Anita Mathias says

      August 26, 2013 at 11:12 pm

      Tough one.
      When I had to work to support my family, I did not do anything creative and was sad, and physically ill and depressed and grumpy.
      I now wish I had carved out 2 hours for creative work, or even 1. Better than nothing.
      I guess this force that crushes creativity is demonic, and we must be warriors to conquer it!

      • Keith Schooley says

        August 27, 2013 at 11:13 am

        Thanks for a kind and real response, Anita.

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